A couple weeks back, I made a discovery that has made me feel quite joyful and satisfied in the Lord- and this discovery was that I feel most excited about living on God’s green earth now more than I ever have been! Oh I would not have seen this one coming- to become excited about living.
It is not that I have been feeling sad or discouraged about life or the fact of living it. I have loved my life, even with the many (I don’t know what word to use for this one)… trying times these couple of years. But I had not yet experienced that place where the feeling of being excited about living came to me. This discovery has felt like the joy of living today and in the future separated itself, became something tangible and alive, but as a separate entity, and came to pay me a visit and decided to stay. I felt it alive and almost touchable, freshly new and yet so familiar. Then I realized that the reason this feels familiar to me is because I was made by God with the excitement of life branded in the deepest part of me. I was born to be excited about life, no matter what, and look forward to the wonders of tomorrow. I must not have known how to reach in and touch it until God revived it in me and for me to connect with it.
And so what? Why do I think it’s extremely important that I have had this experience and discovery about me and the living of life?
First of all, it’s an amazing feeling to know that everything in me is excited about living life on earth here as is a beautiful plan of God. I understand that being excited about life means I deeply recognize that God made a plan about us and the universe, and every day, He is unraveling the mystery that He so masterfully put together. I am a big part of God’s mystery. You are too!
Secondly, this knowledge means that I deeply know that God has got this, all of it, so I should not subject myself to anxiety, because God has not dumped on me a broken world to fix, but He is excited about perfecting everything – broken and unbroken- that concerns me and the world.
This knowledge means that tomorrow was intimately woven by a God who thinks the world of me and has in mind the giant small, irreplaceable, unforgettable place just for me. And whether tomorrow has me at the bottom or top, I am excited to see God bring it to His expected end, right along with me.
He gave me excitement about life. And I thought, “What a gift!” I pray same for you. It is well.
I believe in Miracles.